End of 2005

This is a set of mails written long time back in the year 2005 right after i left Bangalore, and i left behind something which I thought was mine.

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sanjukta.only@gmail.com: this is my new gmail id...hee the other one i thought wud use for official purposes!! sanjukta: i thought you had adamworx as ur id... If i had you, how would it be? would it be good? would the mornings be bluer? the sun warmer and the streams cooler? would the coffee smell better? biryani taste better and I get fatter? would the nights be cozier? love be lovlier? would my hair be shorter ? my face fairer? would you get a make over? or stay the way you are forever? would we travel in a bus ? or an auto on a rainy day together? would we get cold and drenched? and sit closer? would i wait for you longer? would you wait for me moreover? would those days be back ? if ever? would they? to sanjukta.only@gmail.com: i thought i wud get one in my normal id... p.s: those lines were beautiful..! sanjukta.only: The lines were beautiful did you say? talking smart is your way :-) of your words what do I believe? for you say, ' they are the ones that decieve' if decietful are your words, and truth the silence decietful is not anything , but your own loving sense love is not to clutch I know love is not without a dream did you know? if dreams are not nurtured love stings then not words, the silence rings you choose not to react or act in love no, not words are needed always. when silence,be misunderstood some consolation and says, some words, memories of some days they work, both ways those words like a spark in the dark may light hope you may say..what's the use? i know too its too obtuse shall i explain that to my heart? or will you explain? all from the start! no reply came after this mail. or may be whatever came never could satisfy my questions fully...and i moved into another time zone... a happier one.